09.06.09
First Week Convo
Second year in college, first year in Architecture. One word: Awesome. For the most part anyway. Everyone in my program will be together for 3 years. That is, if everyone can make it. Thank goodness that everyone seems to be likeable enough. To my surprise, there’s no one in my program who’s loud, annoying or a smart ass. Perfectomundo, perfect, perfect, perfect. I’ve decided from now on, I’ll never let shyness get in the way of showing people my real personality. I am totally myself J First day I struck up a convo with a few people. Did they think that was weird? Maybe. If it were myself from the past I were talking to, I would have admired how confidant I am. I’m not being cocky or anything -.- it’s just that I was so so shy.
I realize that teachers are very calm people. Every day they have at least 20 pairs of eyes following them, thinking things about them and analyzing them. Man oh man.
Some people say they see white lights when they were in a near death situation and claim that it was a glimpse of the other world. HAHAAHAAA are they sure it’s not because their brain was messed up?
Neways full of randomness as always. I type when I’m in classes so my thoughts are everywhere.
For my Drawing and Presentation class, the class went outside and drew contour lines of buildings. It was cool J we sat in the sun and enjoyed the light breeze. I had a 5 hour break after that. O.O YEAH MAN 5 HOURS, SUCKS BALLS, AMARITE??? So I was talking to this dude and this chick from my program for my entire break. I can’t believe that I actually had 5 hours worth of stuff to talk about to people I’ve known for only a week. We talked about: (well mostly he did)
-Friendship and the different ways people keep them.
-Humans being civilized beasts. Everyone has sexual urges. Why does society look down on people who have sex with someone who is not their significant other? It’s just something interesting to think about. It’s like holding in your pee when u need to go cuz it’s not nice to pee. LOL ok bad example, but you know what I’m saying. And for the record, I wouldn’t have sex with anyone other than a boyfriend. LOL
-How contemplating your existence is a waste of time and only gets you down because nothing good comes out of it (come on, all we have for us after we work hard living in this world is nothingness. Unless you believe in afterlife of sunshine lollypops and all that jazz)
-How religion makes life harder, kills people and makes people unhappy (sigh I’m atheist and religion still makes my life difficult)
Interesting interesting interesting people in my program.
08.20.09
Tremblant :)
Happy Birthday Jonathan! Happy Birthday Sorabh!
:3 Vacation seems long… in the satisfying way. Amanda, Melanie, Janet and I went to Mt. Tremblant for 3 days and 2 nights. We went WHITE WATA WAFTING (103$), ziplining (28$), biking (12$ i fell down a steep hill with a sharp turn & acquired a hude scrape which my friends immediately started working on like 3 sexy nurses), hiking (0$ duh no shit), and hopping from jacuzzi to pool (ouch for my injury my face contorted in pain every time i went in). We got into a bar (Well, I got into a bar and said i forgot my ID while my 18 year old buddies flashed their cards. ehehe) We stared at the cute bartender & ordered fruity drinks for the 2 nights we were there. We vowed that we would all get some boy digits since we are all single and so not uglyyyyyyy. Mel had to get 1 number, 2 for me, and Amanda had to get 3. It didn’t work. So we said we’ll just get ONEEEE guys number. I mean c’mon, there were mostly families at Tremblant…. or so we kept telling ourselves LOL. When we came back by bus, we got desperate. I finally came up with the guts to talk to the guy in front of me but he didn’t speak english very well so conversation went kaput. Mel on the other hand, started a very interesting conversation with the cute guy in front of her by offering him carrots. He was very interesting and genuinely good… but hes 26 years old with forehead and eye wrinkles. ohohooo!! But whatever. Point is, Mel got his number. WOOOHOOOOOOO!!!! Mission accomplished.
When we got back to Manda’s house, we realized that Mt. Tremblant has left its mark on all of us. Amanda had 3 mosquito bites in the chest area (which are mistaken for hickeys), Janet had a bruise on her ass and I had a scraped up calf. Melanie (the only one who doesn’t wear contacts) calls later on to tell us that she has an eye infection. Good grief. Can’t wait for the next trip 
07.18.09
Halfway through summer. A little more heat, a little more sun
Summer is halfway over, MY GOODNESS! Glass half full Hey what can I say? I look forward to my new program at school.
But neways, this summer was by far the BEST one ever!
1) First summer being single since I was 13 has me feeling FREE (double edged sword.. missing Sim like nutso)
2) I’ve managed to further train my parents. At times I can get them to give me a curfew of 1am as opposed to the 10pm norm loooolll
3) Met lots of AMAZING PPL that I absolutely ah-dooooore
4) Going to Toronto and Boston with my family in August and to Tremblant with my girls
5) Work, working out, Dragonboat racing, fundraising and hanging out with friends leaves me little time to be bored
6) Went clubbing for the first time (was awesome). Second time (nasty 45-year olds creeping up behind you, not so awesome) LOL
Like Christmas, Valentines day, Birthdays and Prom, Summer is usually SO overrated.
Not this one I haven’t done anything extraordinary, but I am easily pleased. This summer was a summer of discovery Isn’t everyones first summer of college awesome?
All I need is a little more heat, a little more sun and a beach day. then my summer shall be complete!!!
07.13.09
God being used
People use god as leverage for anything. At work today, a man wanted me and Joana to do his very long and complicated order right away. “Please,” he said “don’t do it for me, do it for god.” Joana talked to him for 15 minutes explaining how many orders we had to do before we could get to his, that we had to take delays because it is our company policy and all that jazz.
“Do it for god.” What a load of fucking bullshit. Hey, I have nothing against religion, but I really hate people who try to take advantage of other people using god. Why the heck would god give a shit if that guy got his photocopies done or not? Seriously, I felt like telling him that he should shove his god shit up his ass. I’m atheist, so perhaps my knowledge of Christianity or other religions must be limited, but I’m pretty sure religion is supposed to be used to do good and become a better person. Not for desperate people trying to get their photocopies done quickly. Speaking from my atheist point of view, I think that the only good thing about religion is that they teach people to be good and it gives them values and morals.
When something goes wrong, some people pray to god for courage. Believing in god gives people hope, no? It must be real comforting thinking that someones always watching over you. Someone who might not even exist… =.=” As for me, when things go wrong, I rely on myself, family and friends. But I wonder, if I lost everything, and everyone in my life, would I turn to god because there is nothing left? When there’s nothing left, I suppose there is nothing to lose in making yourself believe that you will be somehow saved by believing in god. Hmmm.
I realize that these first few blogs are things I talk about frequently with my friends. Ahhh it’s just so interesting hearing what people say about it. Hmm I foresee that my next few blogs will be about psychics, destiny, dumb korean dramas, people who need to grow balls, the end of summer, and my dragonboat team.
Ooodles of toodles!
07.12.09
Don’t ever give up on love
Today I was at Atwater metro and I saw this really cute guy who reminded me of my ex. Tall, defined jawline, lean and tanned. Thinking of S doesn’t hurt me as much as it used to, but from time to time I really really miss that guy to the point of tears. Like today.
Long story shorter, we dated for almost a year but we couldn’t stay together because if his parents discovered our relationship, he would have had a very good chance been disowned. His uncle was, for marrying an Aussie… Why would I want to stay in a relationship knowing that at the moment of discovery, I would be dropped just like that? It would hurt both of us too much. S is young, intelligent, and fun. I’m sure he’ll find someone of his race and religion that his parents would approve of. He’ll be happy and won’t have to worry about concealing anything… His wife will be happy to have him. He cooks, he’s responsible, not half-assed about anything, he knows his priorities, he’s sensitive to people’s emotions, he’s knowledgeable (soaks in info like a sponge!)… and more.
We broke up in March. I tried to make my summer the busiest it could be so that I would get over him more quickly. I’d say that so far it’s working in the sense that I’m not thinking of him as often… but when reminded of good memories, it hits me hard. I haven’t been single for a long time, and I’m beginning to find out that casually dating can get messy and annoying, causing unecessary stress. What if someone develops feelings for you and you can’t seem to return them? Some people think that just because you went out with them twice that you’re interested and it’s become serious. Some people say that they don’t like you but they do and when you ask them, they deny it and try to make you look like a fool. GOD it’s just too much, it makes my brain buzz, I don’t think I want any of it. I am just so used to everything being out in the open, being in a wonderful and stable relationship.
My friends tell me that I should keep my eyes open because good things might pass me by. Maybe they are, maybe not. I really can’t tell at the moment. I’m glad that I don’t seem to attract scumbags and people who just want to fuck (or at least from what I can tell). There are lots of decent guys out there… I know that someday I’ll meet and eventually love and be loved by another awesome guy… Someday’s feeling a long time from now. But I’m happy that I can say that I’ve been in a fantastical relationship with a fantastical guy because now I won’t take anything less than that. There are girls out there who haven’t known anything like this. Good things happen unexpectedly, and so I shouldn’t try to look for the awesome guy. Lady Destiny will have us meet when it’s time. I should say thank you to myself for that pep talk.
“Thank you for that pep talk, I really do appreciate it. You’re the best, I’m so glad that I have you to talk to.”
“No problem, Stephanie. If you have any other things you’d like to discuss, just ask. I’ll always be there for you. Always.”
“Weally?”
“Weally weally.”
“Awwwww! I’m lucky to have so many wonderful friends who genuinely care for me! I love you.”
” I l o v e y o u t o o “
Talking crabs in a metal bowl
I never thought I’d be one to start a blog, but here it goes. Isabelle encouraged me, I guess she liked my note on Facebook. :) Thanks, baby. It’s late and I got no brain juice left in me, so I will post that teeny Facebook note just to start myself off I cannot leave this blog empty!! Enjoy:
I just opened my fridge.. and saw about 4 crabs in a metal bowl. And their legs were kinda moving around and their mouth things too. Two of them were on top facing each other. And I heard them making noises. If they were smart enough (or maybe they are =O!), I wonder what they would say to each other. Tell each other about their lives while dying a horrible cold, sea-saltless death? Boo hoo. It made me a little sad so I shut the fridge door LOLL. But what can I do? Go toss them into some ocean? The world is too cruel. I’m going to eat them tomorrow so they better be having a nice conversation.
